THE CHANGING TIMES
01. When the Sun Sleeps
I thought you'd come back at least i prayed
the romance has been dead for years
but i've been too afraid to dig the grave
relief support never came
memories carry me through the day
of when we were kids
and angels came to watch us play
close my eyes just for tonight
the sun still sleeps and when she wakes
a movie that plays in my mind
remembring you helps me survive
every day a re-run of the next
i promised to stay by your side
that all would change i can't complain
another victim of the game
maybe love will fund us again
for there is always tomorrow
sincerely till the end close my eyes
just for tonight the sun still sleeps
and when she wakes you'll be a memory
02. Letting go of tonight
never forgot the time you made me feel alive
when death was on my mind
or when you held onto me
when the world let me fallbehind
you were love to me rather than just a word
a friend was all you were
and it changed my heart
stood next to me through the storm
felt the wounds and kept me warm
something i had never seen before
and i thank you
03. A Message For Adrienne
i tried so hard to be her day
but the night has already taken me away
shedding dreams under the maple tree
where i carved your name
nothing left, not even time
straight reads the line
his life had reached the end
wanting only to be loved by adrienne
latters explained his grief
but she would never read
his wrists would bleed
but she would never see
so he took his life at the age of 23
and she had always loved him
be he would never know
for she covered her love
like stars cover the sky
hiding her heart
fearing what he would find inside
years took her away
a widow she remained
holding him deep inside
wishing she too would die
time favors no one and if we wait
we too can fall in love
a second too late
04. Never Meant To Break Your Heart
tears run down my face just like the last
no different from yesterday
sick from the mirror
do these prayers feel sincere
the dirt never washes clear
you were good, so good
i grew to love your lies
until i put you in the past
love was lust until he revealed
the man behund the mask
will the scars go away
in this world i have no place
forgive me Jesus this time i cry
i rip my heart outto give to you
alone it never did me any good
hold me close, wash my mind
destroy the me that lives inside
05. The Changing Of Times
never expected it to arrive so soon
but as the night drifted on
it came time to say goodbye
turning your back and walking away
this cold winter morning is all that remains
why couldn't you tell me to my face
instead of hiding until i lost faith
a heart gets broken as a life gets set free
and all i asked was love me
years passed, seasons changed and i waited
(hate time to say goodbye, hate time)
soon after was the pain
that would never reach you
you've gotten over me
but it seems i'll never get over you
on me i place this blame
regrets
praying heaven will open wide
and hold you tight
as for me, i'll be alright
this impact you would have
the songs i'd write
dreams or you changing your mind
anything to pass the time
but for now
i hope you can hear me as i cry
i love you and goodbye
06. Angel Below
you took me over the edge
and left me there to fall by myself
the word love meant nothing to you
i was taken in with your lies
and you knew i was too weak to leave
but you were wrong
you mean nothing to me now
every time you think of me
i hope your heart dies
i have found my true love
and you now burn beneath my feet
you'll pay for everything you've done
if you could die
i'd be the one with the gun
from this day on
i'll write the songs you hate
and pray the prayers that drive you away
it's time to let the world know how
you tried to ruin my life
up burn my thoughts of him
the virus leaves me
07. The Best Of Me
in my mind you never left
falling wasn't true
i had faith you flew past the sky
straight through the night
and the sun reflects the night
carrying the very same thing
in your heart that saved me
but maybe you've stopped listening
falling on my selfish ways
it takes faith to see
so close your eyes and search
deeper than just memories
i never stopped believing in you and me
your leaving never changed things
i've been here for too long
to just walk away
08. Short Of Daybreak
another year has gone by
time just took it away
friends have changed
clear skies watched over us
but we've had our share of rain
romance still sits untouched
by the water she waits patiently
hoping i'll take her home someday
to think i lost her
that my dreams were her only place
but for her i've learned to wait
a smile remains on my face knowing
God hold her at night
letting her know i'm on my way
so i'll hold my head high
for love may be a day
i can't say
but tomorrow awaits
bringing me closer to you
10. Alone In December
you always amazed me
but thats the past
i kept silent and it rained for days
my inside were drenched
but i guess that's the part of growing up
i never wanted to learn
and i grew into the man
that you never knew
but i wouldn't be this way
if it wasn't for you
100 thank you's
it this is love
fairy tales never came true
judies are black in full bloom
and i died in the womb
take it back, all that's gone
it's all still there like you left it
december stayed the same
nothing ever changed but you
every dream civered in dents
love can't fly tonight
couples will rest, i'll be sleepless
so cry yourself to sleep
this is about broken hearts
this is about me
bending again for nothing
i'd run to you but pain awaits
i'm coming home
but i'll be late
no deeper than imagination can be
sight with nothing to see
what's faith if i can't believe
it's everything
a cure, but i make it a disease
God take me because i hate me
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CRIES OF THE PAST
01. The Last
these fingers so frail paint in my mind
scars down the back of my eyes
death walks with me alone tonight
the coldness whispers it's almost near
rest for soon it will be over
years flash before my and i understand why i'm here
no one will ever know, as the pictures come clear
don't worry they tell me this feeling won't last forever
voices beating their drums in my heart
the water looks so peaceful below and the struggle lets go
climbing over the wall of life's edge
leaving behind the smiles of yesterday
the light that shined has vanished to a grayscale of night
tears once present now look into the dryness inside
silent words enter the sky screamed
from this body as a reply, and these words begin to write
dear lord, if these break the earth
and enter your courts save me tonight
time is short and the hurt of death grows with every breath
here i am at the end
this wall that blocked you out for so long opens wide
and i begin to burn from the inside
i'll never forget that night
the night Jesus Christ made the blackness white
02. Giving Up Hurts The Most
angels mourn crying, praying for your soul
as my eyes open from their state of sleep i feel my blood
turn into a frozen river
nightmares so close death was in the air
my heart locked shut, and i gave you the key
promise never to leave
as lies hold me emptiness fills my broken heart
screaming your name hoping for a response, silence summer
drowned by winter
to look in your face and realized the time we spent the chances i
had have drifted away from my fingertips
your life, your thoughts, your dreams, your love
never tried my hardest and now i cray as the hurt enters
i love you and i still love you
even though i never showed it
a piece of me is gone forever
clutching memories held so close
repeating words of love spoken to late
my eyes look all around but all they can focus on is you
for in you i find me
days past by and thy death still lingers
this coldness will never satisfy me
i want to be surrounded by angels in a place
where the sun is so warm it burns my insides
surrounded by angels
where love takes my darkest depressions
and throws it into the deepest of sea
a place i can call home, i'm crying to you Jesus
mend me, break me, make me
you're all i've got now
my eyes look all around but all they can focus on is you
for in you i find me
farewell my friend your time has come
and never will i be able to tell you i love you again
03. Walking Away
the day i left you was the worst mistake i ever made
was ready to become something i didn't need you dragging me down
thought your love just wasn't enough
my hair combed, nice shoes tied tight
was ready to conquer life
help unwanted i can do this on my own and then i found myself wounded
tripping over myself, falling and scraping my knee
sadness fills for i know i've failed
why did i leave scared to go back
hoping you'll take me in with open arms
but also know the hurt i've caused
the breeze of angel wings
standing there a midst of lowers of every being
tears grow and orchestra begins to play
what a beautiful day, why are you alone
run child it's time for you to go home
wounded spirit face in the dirt
i cry out for you to take me in
your heart holds me close, and
i look up to face this world which so scares me
faith in you loneliness just seems to fade.
the man once inside now a child walking in your footsteps
hoping held leaves under feet from the trees of fall
listening to autumn's call
a deep breathe to continue on, fragile
depending on you Christ carry's me the rest of the walk
04. And I Dreamt Of Uou
i see thy love in the distance
breathless gasping for air, for in thy dreams you where
awakening to the bleakness in my room
as my eyes begin to blear reality sets and starts the fear
for do dreams come true or do i die alone
waiting like the petals of a wilting flower fall off
until there is non and the once beautiful flowers dies naked
with no one to clothe it
will i hold you in the grave or will the grave hold me?
the numbing dreams never end the swallow's wings still amonsgt
the idle wind
my colored wold turns to grayscale
recollecting the memories eyes covered hazel
contradiction of thy thoughts standing calm love not lost
searching till i find my princess whose passionate eyes cut right through me
for what is life if love only exists in thy thoughts?
what is romance if it is all fiction?
nothing but a portrait left empty, a passing cloud of hurt
by to meet ym love in the flesh is to find my whole heart
your heart breaks though me your love is the key
longing for my hearts door
to what day till i see sunrays shine upon your face
i dream of you the way you look
the beating of love in your heart
your wolds are like the flowing of a spring, knowing thy love
waits for me until eternity's end
is this poetry or is this love's sickness
engulfing my every being
take the heart from you and the blood ceases from me
i see what you hear
breathe taking the closest thing to me and my savior
falling in love to a person i have never met but knowing she has salvation's fragrance
by God's grace this love will be free and able to fly away above
the earth to a point of exhaustion
but your breath will keep me alive
words are pointless for this love is speechless
preparing fro the curtains close
laying their clutching hands so tight i can feel your heart
telling me it will be all right
ascension to heaven wehre this love can not only walk
but it runs through the endless fields of joy
where love neither ends nor begins but flows everlasting
this was thy dream this daybreak and will by thy prayer
that i will rest sleepless till the sun rises on that day
and butterflies sing with us as we write love symphony
the pages of life fill the story of our love in a time long ago
where fairy tales come true
and you and i my love will live happily everafter
i love you
05. Cries Of The Past
it happened all so fast heavy with sleep my eyes closed
the next thing i remember was crawling out from the car and
seeing you lying there
holdin your head kissing you for the last time
the taste of blood on my lips
your clothes torn apart perfumed with gas
it seems like it was yesterday when the rain poured down
i can still hear your screams as if it was happening all over again
saturday, december 4th that night woudl become a grave
that would crush my heart
joy and laughter exchanged for grief and silence
searching for so long to fnd you and the moment
you were ripped from me
laying here on this empty shelf never to be read again
in these pages lies every memory of you
the wind blew your heart over my eyes and i slept for days
praying not to awake, but these dreams can only last so long
facing the day looking through these tears
i'll always look back and remember that night as you lay there
looking over that casket seeing your face times of past rushing
touching your cold hand wishing it woudl touch me back
you look so pretty lying thee just like the first day we met
it feels so real like olt times but it's nothing, it's nothing
i can taste the stale air on my tongue and death lights up the sky
hope finds itself it and end stopping at my thoughts
pictures of you help bring back the tears
walking in the present but living in the past
how much longer will i embrace sorrow?
from the moment you entered my life
my whole outlook on love would change
you brought out a happiness i didn't even know i had
and now you've gone leaving without a goodbye
that glass heart that rested in my chest has fallen and shattered
here on lord is the remains of a broken heart
for i have faith you can give me joy and life again
death has fallen but love covers me
heaven is now home to my angel of love
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ACT OF DEPRESSION
01. Heart of Stone
All the blood in their souls pour out, look for something in the dark
Blinded they find nothing another lust given in, another trust shut within
Listen to him speak so holy, father God, I'm saved
That's fall that matters let the rest burn in hell
Preach false, a sin is a sin, doesn't give you the right to condemn then to hell
they know their wrongs you don't have to tell them their faults
Once you were a sinner how would you like it if someone laughed at you because of your wrongs?
I'm not here to accept their sings but I'm here to show them love within
Listen to him speak so holy, Father God I'm saved
That's all that really matters let the rest burn in hell.
No Matter how hard you try you can't convince me that you represent Christ
No more, I'm fed up with this... you've already killed too many souls
It's time you wake up and see the truth Christian, I stand no afraid of my beliefs
Learn to love your enemies, to open their eyes you must be willing to die
Look at your own wrongs before you look at someone else's
You want to save souls or put souls to death
Giving our savior a bad name, giving me a bad name
You're so wrong with your beliefs, sit in church every week, but never do you help the weak
This is time to take back what's ours, not to give the world what's ours
Don't you want to see everyone saved or just yourself with a river of bloodon your hands?
02. A Love So Pure
Always did it on my own then one day I realized
I was blind,, nothing I could do on my own
Turn, we have found a way to see, look up... feel the Almighty
Take control as we gaze into your eyes
We're just the tool you use to bring this world to you
Oh, Lord, how we love you
With your grace, take away the hurt and the bruises inside,
reach down let your glory reside
The cross carried for all of us, paint the image in my mind
So I will never think I am something,
but nothing am I but you, you are something
Lord you keep me alive, you give me rest at night
When there seems no way to find calmness in the storm you come and
take me in your arms and then the waves drown me no more
With you I'll last this battle and many others
Through the ages your name will reigh forever... never to be replaced
In these trials I face, I pray you humble me
Humble me I want to be like you Jesus more and more like you
I was crucified on that day with Christ
Nailing you there with sin, accepting you
I nailed my soul to the cross and now my life begins
This world so cold but your love keeps me warm
My father holds me in his nailed scarred hands which I put there
But for some reason he still loves me with all his heart
Even through I betray him constantly
He always keeps his arms open waiting, till I give up my old was
God my father, you are the only one that can give me comfort
You touch my heart in such a way that all I can do is cry your name
Jesus Christ I love you
My heart aches for your love
03. Burden in your Hands
Confusing and scared there is a decision made with this choice a child hasto pay
She puts it's life in her hands, and then she destroys it's only chance to become someone in life
You should of thought aboutthe baby before you had sex, because you have destroyed a gift from God
You kill, you destroyed
Never will this baby be able to grow up or show it's love
You'll never hear it say I love you, I love you
God does not give you the privilege to carry a child for nothing
When you kill, you destroy that child's dreams and hopes
How innocent a baby is... how can you put it to death?
What if you were aborted... you could of never had life
And now you make a choice to take this child's life becayse it is a burden in you hands
A burden in your hands
Destroyed out of convenience
They put an end to you life because you're too big a burden and one that they can not have
So they take your life before your first breath
When will it stop, the killings continue
Babies die everyday because of a pro choice made
Helpless and innocent they are putto death
Then why did the parents choose to plant a seed and then destroy it?
Pray for the people who are killing the kids of tomorrow
How desperately they need Jesus Christ in there hearts
So they take your life because your a burden in their hands
Destroyed our of convenience
They put a end to you life because you're too big a burden and one that they can not have
So they take your life before your first breath,
so they take your life brfore your first breath
04. Innocence Stolen
Her body twitches, unbearable pain
Lord bring me out of this, why doesn't he stop, love does not exist
Her insides feel like an unbearable hell
Confusion runs through her mind
She prays so loud, she cries from the inside
why, why, why, why, how could someone do this to me?
He has taken this gift from her, fright in her eyes,
he doesn't even flinch, persistence on his face
Her body lay helpless as the shock kicks in
Thoughts of death only enter in
Why was I raped? Why did he do this to me,
I thought he loved me, but now my inside bleed
Scared for life, I face this world
Only the Lord helps me make it through each day
How can you look in a girl's eye and use her body for your own please?
This one's for the child molesters, this one's for the people who rape!
My God powerful will burn your bridged down!
Planned attack on your soul to defeat the evil and make you whole
If no change, then hell your fate
When you rape you take the most important thing in a young girls life
Those who have been raped: you are in my prayers... God hears your cries
05. Act of Depression
I tried to cry out from the inside, but I guess my soul did not pour itself out enough
Blood on the walls, flaming black, blood on the walls,
I saw you staring through the cracks
No one was to know what was happening in me I felt no love,
I felt no reason to carry on with my life
Everything was wrong, nothing was right, at least that is what I thought
Kids finding laughter at my expense
They were killing me on the inside they couldn't give up their pride
My heart was bleeding from so much grieving
On the outside I looked fine, you couldn't tell but on the inside was eternal hell
I got caught up in the moment of depression,
and before I knew it my bodywas lying on the ground
With a gun in my hand my hourglass was out of sand
Thanks to all the people who drove me to death
Without you I could of never ended my breath
Through your anger and hate, I was able to choose my fate
There was a way out, but I chose the easy route
Blast of a gun, breath runs out, final thoughts put to extinction
No more pain, no more love, for you have chosen suicide as the way out... help them
Ice cold fingers, body lays on the floor,
pool of blood you see, you scream out in terror
Her body is now a part of mutilation, her soul the victim of strangulation
I will not accept this evil anymore
I never thought of who I hurt or I never tried to look for the good
I'm sorry for whoever I hurt, it's not easy to look back on my life,
and know I did not know Christ
For now I live in a real hell
I wish I had another chance... then I would live my life with love
06. Watch Me Die
I lay as this sacrifice to this unholy altar
The evil inside Satan; Satan sit and watch me die
Demented screams, tortured beings, where's your hope,
where's your smile, there was none
Life of lies gone, gone no more
So upset, so distraught, I'm sorry, I'm Sorry... I live for the Lord
Watch me die no longer I am alive
My purpose no more... I live for Christ
Dead to sin, only begin, imagine what's for Soldier of Christ
Changed with a new beginning, blood of the lamb, white washed sins
Forgive me God for all of these years of my transgressions
I cry renewed, I cry renewed This world means nothing to me
My life changed I now see Crucified with Christ,
the old self left with the rest of this world, rest of this world
Kneel before his throne, home now from this journey
I see my father in his arms finally found
This path I have chosen is hard but I'll make it with my saviors help
I survive this hell till the end I'll stand true
Eternal life, ready for the fight that the evil brings
No giving in... I'm free
The fire burns engulfing all the victims in it's path, no where to run
Over taken they give in to surrender to the Lord once, and for all
No longer keeping quiet, no longer standing still,
no longer giving in, no longer going back
I stand strong praying for love always to be in my heart
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